ME:

Hey –
I want to call but respecting your process is important to me. Maybe, I’m alone here but I miss you and there’s a lot that still seems unfinished and icky, for lack of a better word.  The last time we saw each other was horribly heavy, filled with intense emotion, numbness and snot! So, before we randomly run into each other at some audition or $99 hotel (after midnight, of course) do you think we could sit in front of each other? or go for a walk? has enough time passed?  It’s better to be honest and ask for what we want in life, right? (especially when it scares the shit out of me)…So I’m asking….

Congrats on the new album and Dj’ing gig (damn facebook).. you’ve been busy!  🙂

323 xxx-xxxx jic
come on… it can’t be worse than the last time we saw each other? 😉
c-

HIM:

NOTHING!! Well…I sure am sad.. but now I REALLY know? didn’t I know before? Kinda feel like Kid-guy here.. just one more try.. boo hoo.. SHIT!! I HEAR YOU!!!! Stop mirroring behaviors that do not work!! I GET IT!! FINE!!!!!!!!!!! Enough!!

HIM:

“Okay, so I wake up this morning and reach over for my iPod Touch which has “new message” flashing. I click on the link you sent me and I watch one of the sweetest, most joy-filled videos I’ve ever seen. You guys looked so happy and that song was so wonderful. You’ve started off my day in the greatest way possible….

“So, the message that was just for you is that you were positively glowing in that video. I mean that there was something vibrant/radiant about you, inside and out — so, I concluded that you are once again in love.  Which kind of (in a moment of putting it out there) made me feel that I’m sorry I met you when I did, instead of not now. I knew there was something about you when we met, that you might be something special.  But here we are, in a new form and format. And I’m fine with that.  But if you ever change your mind…you should know that there’s some actor/lawyer/cupcake whore in NYC who thinks you’re both beautiful and joyful and who remains interested….

I’m now going to hit send before I change my mind.”

ME:

Though I don’t understand your lack of contact with me, I have to LISTEN to it and respect your process, as I was not great at either while in our relationship and I am so so sorry for that. I really do hope that someday we will be able to continue the friendship we began. There are very few people in this world that I’d welcome sitting in a car with for 10hrs at a time… pretty special indeed.

In the meantime, I have torn my place and car upside-down and cannot find my pair of dark red prescription glasses.  If you have them I am requesting that you (carefully) send them to me and my parking pass as that costs me both money and time to replace and it still have 2 months left on it.

You taught me a lot. 
thanks,
lubey”

HIM:

“Lubey,

HIM:

“Your ad is all over cbs this morning… Tennis.”

I don’t really give a rats ass… I wish he’s get over it and move on.. It’s not healthy!! I’ve still responded to ANYTHING since before Easter!!

HIM:

I’m alone working at the office today… Last time I did this was during that trial.

I’m reminded that there are lots of things I appreciated about you in a relationship. You did show up. I think I made you feel as though I really thought you didn’t.  That was not the case… Even if you do sleep with a blanket around your head… 😉

I guess I just wanted to be sure you knew I appreciated you.

I’ve moved on but I still miss you sometimes hon. I hope ur happy.

J”

no response from me… still…

Happy Birthday Beautiful. I hope you have a wonderful day.

HIM:

“P got a phone and is txtng you”

How the fuck did she get my number but from HIM?? Fucking asshole using his daughter to do his dirty work!! She will never have a “normal” relationship with a man because her dad is a fucking crazyman!! What a bastard!!

HIM:

“They used your photo on a different cereal 🙂 miss you. Hope ur well.”

LEAVE ME the FUCK!! ALONEEEEE!!!!

still NO response from me!!

Glad we cleared all that up. Nothing worse than miscommunication left unresolved. So, based on what we talked about last night I’ve withdrawn from taking the bar exam next week, given up my apartment, had the initials “CS” tatoo’ed on the back of my neck, and have purchased a one way ticket to LA. Please clear out the left side of your closet, the right side of your kitchen, the out side of your balcony and the bottom 4 drawers of your dresser (I have a lot of socks). Also, I’ve contacted my parents (yes, even the dead one) and told them to expect a June 2016 wedding somewhere either in Hakaido, Japan or Winslow, Arizona, (whichever is closer) and happily told them we expect to be pregnant both 6 months after and 13 months before the ceremony. It’s twins, by the way. A boy named Pablo Fandango and a girl named Cheddar Alfafa (I like to plan in advance).

See you tonight at 6 pm!! (Can you pick me up please? Terminal 3.  I’ll be wearing a hat).

JC

July 22

Saw your Chase ad about 5 times this week. Congrats! You look cute.
J

Nothing from me

HIM:

“Glad to hear you’re safe and sound. Now, to wrap things up, so no threads are left. First, it was great hanging out with you, from plays to cupcakes, from Thai to Italian. You’re as interesting as Rachel promised. Now, on to that of which is never spoken: I first contacted you after the cheese video because I thought you were cute, I liked the sound of your voice (weighs heavily with me) and R spoke of your awesomeness. I had fun (well, most of the time, anyway) with our email exchanges and hoped it would translate in person. (Why would I think anything could/would/should come of anything with someone who lives in California, in the first place? Well, because my life and future have no geographic boundaries and like I said once, I’m willing to go where I need to be. But back to the point, then). So, in any case, as said, I hoped we translated face to face. Well, it did on my end (as much as it could so briefly) enough to make me curious.  But obviously not on yours. Totally fine. No explanation needed. That’s how goes. Some days you’re the bug, some days you’re the windshield. Nevertheless, I wanted to tell you I appreciated you letting me know right away that it wasn’t meant to be because it 1) saved me the embarrassment of making an ass of myself later in the weekend and 2) made hanging out  all the more fun once I didn’t have to wonder. So, like I said…epilogue…well, actually, more like a new chapter really…. See you on the right page….”

oh…… DJ guy.. why did you and how did you win me over?? but alas… can’t stop thinking of you and wish I could think of ….. nope.. can’t!!